My ramblings of these times

w00t! what a night that was! First we went to dinner at Amici's, then we went to South Row and screwed around on the soccer field then we went off to the movies to see Casino Royale which is a friggin sweet movie! I think I could pass off as a James Bond...haha. right. All night I'm pulling out the stops. Opening the door for her, etc. lol. Oh yeah. Then we go to Robert's field by the pond and I pull out 2 champagne glasses and martinelli's and of course, the only drawback to the night was that I forgot the bottle opener in the car! I was so embarrassed. Everything was going so smooth and then that! grrr...lol. But it was cool. It still worked out well. Drank and checked out the stars since it was actually somewhat warm out and clear! NO RAIN!!! lol. Nice after all last week! And its sunny now too! w00t! so anyways. Then took her home and that was it. Very good night! Loved it! Giggity giggity goo! hehehe

BASICS:

name: Mike Brown

birthday: 06/27/1987

height: 6'.5" what? thats what i measure at!

what do you like about yourself: my rugged good looks. heh

what dont you like about yourself: physically: my stomach area(though im gonna be losing weight in guatemala!; mentally: i overthink a lot

how are you are feeling right now: tired. my head hurts. im bored. longing to leave for guatemala!

LASTS;;

last thing you said: have fun

last thing someone said to you: right

last person you hugged: ali kuzara i think

person who said i love you: hmm...my grandparents when i was talking with them on the phone last night

last time u were in a bed other than yours: not exactly in...but on emily's

WHATS:

what makes you laugh: comedy tv. and other stuff. lol

what time did you wake up today: 10ish?

what time did you go to bed: meh. 1:30 i think

what are you listening to: kenny g! haha. yeah. im a loser

whats something thats on your mind: cigars. heh. dont ask. a convo im having with a buddy

what do you want to fast forward to next: going to guatemala on tuesday!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY:

what are your plans: sit, sit, and sit some more. and then go to bed.

who do you plan on seeing: my mom. and dad when he gets home too.

what have you eaten: cous cous, chicken, some breakfasty stuff, and a sandwich

have you driven today: yes. to walmart and the bank

SCHOOL:

school you're attending: im on deferment for 2 years, but otherwise, BYU-Idaho

grade: should be a sophomore, but im technically a freshman. (3 credits away from being a sophomore. had to drop a class)

do you get good grades: average. depends on the class

ever been suspended: came close

ever swore at a teacher: yes. to his face. he didnt notice. senior year with sheehy. sub. hated him!

how many different schools you have attended: 5. preschool through college

YOUR ROOM:

whats in there: a bed, a desk, a lamp, a window, a closet, and a door, and 2 chest of drawers, 2 bookshelves, some floor, and some other crap. and its a small room so its very cramped

what size bed do you have: twin. its too small for me. i hate it.

what color are your walls: light blue mostly. but the paint is chipped off in many places.

do you have a closet: yes

are you in there now: yes

whats next to your bed: the wall

whats under your bed: crap

FRIENDS:

Closests: teddy, emily, matt for MA, and others in ID too. good list there.

funniest: heh. matt. fo sho. goats and cows and llamas!

most like you: teddy, but hes more of a stoned version of me

known the longest: teddy

loudest: emily

SO TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF:

ever stayed back: no

ever been in the hospital: yes

in an ambulance: no. sadly.

first love: heh. thats debatable some days. i'd say mel though. sophomore year in high school.

what do you do when your mad: depends. i drive very fast, very. like 100. at least. other times. i sleep.

what do you do when your happy: i drive. not as fast. more cooly and slower and calm. i also sleep

shoe size: 11

do you work: not anymore!

any piercings/tattoos: nope

do you take things too seriously: some days. otherwise, not at all

are you having fun doing this: no. but its better than nothing! lol. so maybe yes.

wow...my computer sucks...

and im still in a funk i cant explain. but at the same time not so much. i kinda just gave up on it. dont care anymore. i kinda just said to myself, dont sweat it. its over. too bad. move on. so thats what i did. maybe it will stay that way. i have no idea. i wish i could just know right now. so yeah. my computer sucks too.

Good morning! It is now 5 days till departure! Not including today. And also, thanks for all that replied to the last post. heh. It wasn't really all that bad, but whatev! lol. I've been through much worse and I'm sure I haven't got my fill of dangerous escapes from death yet! lol. Anyways, the sun poked its head out for awhile today. Forecast says partly sunny...right. Didn't last long. It's cloudy again. Though it is 60 degrees. So that is nice. Much like the weather I will be going to. Except, right now it is in the 70's in Guatemala. sweeet!

Ever have a bad dream one night that you knew wouldn't happen because it was so bizarre and impossible because you weren't even in that area of the world? But at the same time portrayed a message about something that really was happening? Well, that happened the other night. I won't go into detail, but it was just bad. And true at the same time. The message it portrayed was real. And is real. Very sad too. I couldn't stand it most of the day yesterday. A part of my life was just thrown away it seemed. I still don't know exactly how things will turn out, but I don't really care right now. I am just leaving that alone now and if something comes up, so be it. If not, it is out of my life at least for the next 2 years. If not more... But then last night I had a dream that was just awesome. Very simple. Included other people. And mostly a very close friend. One that I have known for just about all my life. Except for the year that that person was not born yet. This girl I grew up with in our church and we have an interesting past. When we were young (like 4 or 5 i think) she would look out the window of the car and pick out houses. haha. Good times. Anyways, since then we have remained good friends, but not as close as before because of the fact that she lived in Pepperell and me in Chelmsford. She was going to a different ward (church lingo) and so we didn't see each other often. I would at dances that the church put on and whatever other activities and stuff, but those were not terribly often either. Anyways, so the dream was that I was leaving in a couple days and I was visiting her ward and she was going home with her family. She came up to me to say goodbye and hugged me and all that while we talked, and then right before she left, she did something that I would never have thought her to do. She kissed me. That was just so short of a dream, but so cool. It was a good reminder that I have great friends here that care about me and so much more meaning that I can't put into words. It was a good comfort dream I suppose. So now I need to get to work and do some more stuff here...lol. Later!

I am one lucky SOB sometimes! haha. Tonight I went to Nashua and it was rainy and I was tired since I worked a lot the other day and I didn't sleep the best last night so I almost fell asleep at the wheel on the highway and on the offramp almost hit a guy or he almost hit me...idk. lol. Then on the way home I was much more awake and so I was going about 80 or so and I was in the left most lane and I look over to the right and saw a cop sitting there as I was going by. He apparently didn't see me as he did not start chasing. lol. That was nice! Also since it was raining, he had a good case on me. heh. OH well. So I was lucky tonight! w00t!

Not a whole lot going on lately, but enough to keep me busy. I have 9 days left before I leave! Dang, I'm down to single digits now! w00t! So yesterday and today I helped out my parents with cleaning up the yard for winter. Putting all of the outdoor stuff away like chairs and all the other things my mom has around the yard. Also, getting rid of old plants that died. I was doing the most hard job, that is in actual physical work. So, I got to dig a hole. 5 really. Not huge, and shouldn't be that big of a deal, but it was on the parts that we used to have huge trees about 6 years ago or so. So I had to get the pick axe on most of the holes and chop away at the stumps and pick out the rot and the rest of it. Lots of good ol' work. lol. It was nice since I'm seeing the hardening of my arm muscles. Of course, working at the lumber yard helped that as well. So now my arm actually shows a hump on my bicep when I flex. It's pretty cool. lol. I haven't had that since I regularly worked out last winter. Sad I let myself go like that. Now, I am leaving and won't be able to go to a gym. I'll be walking lots so my legs are going to get pretty muscular, but my upper body will be neglected somewhat, so I'm gonna try to actually train myself to just do 15 minutes of pushups and situps in the morning when I get up. Hopefully that will work. lol. Knowing me, it may not, but I'm gonna have to discipline myself in other areas, it just might actually happen. I want to be able to just keep up my upper body strength to a point that I can defend myself if needed. So anyways. I've been busy downloading lots of music again since I have had access to wireless again yesterday and today. It's been nice. Last night I went to the movies with Matt and Dan and hung out with them for a bit afterwards. We went to see Harsh Times. It was alright. Nothing great, but meh. It had action and whatnot so it was pretty decent, but not my favorite movie of all time of course. Dan invited me over to his place to (as he put it) "kick back some brews", but I declined knowing my idiotic potential and went home early. Good guys, but I didn't want to put myself in a place where I knew I could be influenced in a bad way and do something stupid. Gotta keep clean now! lol. So anyways, I think I'll go watch tv or something for a bit. Lata homies!

*sighs*
I'm happy, but I'm not at the same time...I am being torn in different directions...go figure, since I am so close to leaving. No real surprise. I can't wait to leave in 12 days! But at the same time, part of me wishes I was staying. There is part of me that wishes I could just stay home and go to school here, for certain reasons...but of course the other side just wants to get out so I can not think about home and just bury myself in my work and service. I know of course that there is nothing else I am going to do other than leave, but its just those feelings that are driving me a little nuts. I want to be with some people, but I can't. I want to be with some for the wrong reasons, and I know it, but I still want it. It's so material and something that isn't what I need, but I can't help but feel it.




Well, that was put together about 30 minutes ago...I guess I just needed to get that out. I'm better than I thought. My brain was just getting all jumbled and after all that, I think I'm good. For now...lol. We'll see. Till next time.

I voted today. yay. Not much going on. Just got back from seeing Ali, Dominic, and Julia which was fun. Went to Panera and other places and yeah. That's all for now. 2 weeks from today!!!

You know those scrubbing bubbles product that cleans your shower automatically and those ads on TV with the maids and whatnot? Well, that don't work. It actually makes things worse. Take CBS's word.
http://cbs13.com/buyandtry/local_story_307212004.html
And also, my brother and sister-in-laws word. lol. So yeah. The stuff sucks. Go figure. heh.

Anyways, I finished off my ribs and boy were they good! Another 15 days left to go before I leave! So much to do and so little time. Then again, there isn't that much to be done. Oy. I can't believe I am leaving for Guatemala! It's so cool that I am and can't wait! It is going to be the most amazing experience ever. The best 2 years as some put it. I know that's going to be the case. Soon I will be writing in a regular journal instead of typing like this and doing a blog. heh. Oh well. Time to do some stuff I suppose. Lata days!

What a day! I drove 200 or so miles. 100 each way. I went down to Springfield, MA to go see Emily at her school at Bay Path. That was a lot of fun. The drive was long, but not bad. Got there and just messed around, not really a whole lot to do there so yeah. It was a cool time. Then on the way home, I nearly flipped the car. I just finished paying the toll guy on Mass Pike and was speeding back up and I tried to reach to put my wallet away and my leg accidentally hit the steering wheel and made the car swerve really quickly and so I stablized it quickly which was fun. lol. Then I proceeded to go about 100 mph on the way back on I-495. Good time. So yeah. That's all right now. Goodnight!